Archive | April, 2010

Who am i, by Casting Crowns

24 Apr

Hmm, i recently feel blessed by this song.
It reminds me, that i’m nobody or nothing special, to be give such a wonderful gift from the Lord.
Just by His grace, now I’m what I’am. Not because of who i am. That’s the word. 🙂

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You’ve done
Not because of what I’ve done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I’m calling
Lord, You catch me when I’m falling
And You’ve told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You’ve done
Not because of what I’ve done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I’m calling
Lord, You catch me when I’m falling
And You’ve told me who I am
I am Yours

Not because of who I am
But because of what You’ve done
Not because of what I’ve done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I’m calling
Lord, You catch me when I’m falling
And You’ve told me who I am
I am Yours

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
‘Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

when my notebook collapsed..

24 Apr

i went home from easter celebration at 23.00, 23 April 2010. First thing that accrosed my mind was to finish the pharmacokinetic calculation of Urine kinetic. fiuh. I have no problem to do those assignment in the middle of the night, in fact,  i was a little bit excited to finish those calculation. Hehe.. [freak..:p]. But, what else could be even worse than a collapsed notebook to celebrate this situation??

Yup, that’s right. When i was trying to turn on my note book, at first it looked fine. The same colour, the same symbol of acer. And then, the nightmare began.. The cursor appear, but the background, the light blue colour who supposed to welcome me brightly, didn’t show at all. Just a black, with a little white cursor monitor. And, the blood of my body, instantly accelerates it flows, because of my heart rate that also increased. And the adrenalin released into the blood stream, to face the fight and flight situation like these. Loh? [freak times 2.. ^.^] sorry. The point is, I WAS REALLY PANIC! nothing like this ever happened to my dear lepitop [notebook i mean] before.. huhu. How can i finish those task with a blank monitor?

And then, my little sister, Indri, knocked on my door, in the middle of the night. For what? Borrow the internet.. Hehe. The times couldn’t be even better. So, yup, she used the internet for about 1 hour, while i watched friends TV series, and after that, i borrowed her notebook to finish those calculation. Huhu, because my notebook colapsed, i have to finish the calculation in the middle of the night. Ouch. And it was finished at 4.30 in the morning. Practically, i didn’t sleep two days ago and my eyes looked really2 bad today. And i hate those facts!now, in the same situation, because my lovely lepitop still in the critical condition, i can’t do anything beside praying that the data on those harddisk can be saved.

Please, dear harddisk of my lepitop[eh, leptop mksudnya]. Just try harder to save your self.. Don’t die now, at least let me save ur data, so ur death wouldn’t be so worthless. We had the good time this 3 years.. just 1 more year untill i graduate.. Pray for u and the mas2 on BEC who’s trying to save ur self right now.. hiks.. -__-”

Dear God, thx for today and every bless that You gave to me.. 🙂 Please bless the man who’s trying to repair the HD of my laptop, so that it could be health again.. yey.. 🙂 thx God. morning.. ^.^

In the middle of 2 choices.. Pharmacokinetic or Immunology

22 Apr

One thing that continously acrossed my mind in this whole week. Where will i do my final project in order to get those prestigious title : Bachelor of Science. Hmm, yummy. 🙂 [and still, why am i comparing the title with food? hehe. my bad. ^.^]

Personally, on my mind, since my second year in this lovely School of Pharmacy, i’ve fallen in love with human anatomy and physiology. Because of that, i finally decided that, 2 years from now, i will have my final project on Pharmacology Division. After i made up my mind like that, in the next-next semesters,  i was continously choosed many subject that related to physiology to my credits. Such as: Pathophysiology, Sport Physiology, and then Clinical toxicology, and now nutrition therapy and the best of all Biomedic Product. As the time goes bye [halah.. :p], i think that in that whole pharmacology division, i’m spesifically really-really love the immunology part. So, i also decided, my final project will be something related with immunology.

And now… One year after that, in this semester. I have the Pharmacokinetic syndrome. Yup, for the first time in my life i’ve got this lecture about pharmacokinetic analysis. With Ms. Lucy, Mr.Diky, and Mr.Sukma as the lecturer of these subject that worth 3 credits. Wow. Rumor has it, that this subject is really hard to understand, and the test will be very hard and there were a lot of students that got an awful/poor points for this subject. Me, personally also afraid in the first place with this subject. But you know what, as the time going, i realize that i love this subject very very much! Especially when Ms. Lucy gave the lecture. Even though she really really fast when she taught us, but i like it. Really. 🙂 And, thx for the Lord God in Heaven, that my mid test score was good. From that point, i’ve become more and more interested to do my final project in this subject, Pharmacokinetic. But, how about the pharmacology and the immunology? What will happened with that?

Maybe i’m good at pharmacokinetic, but honestly, if they asked me about something that related with pharmaceutic but nit pharmacokinetic, i think i couldn’t answer that correctly. For example: if you asked me abou micromeretics or dispersion, suspension, or whatever is that. I don’t know if could answer to that question. But, in the other hand, i think i have more knowledge in pharmacology division. I can related the link between the physiology of the body itself with the drugs maybe, or the mechanism that happen in the body. So, i think i’m stronger in pharmacology. But Dear God, please-please, can i have those both in my final project. I love them both. Really… humph. 😦 what shoul i do?

Pharmacokinetic or Immunology? Can i have those both on my final project? Who will be my supervisor or lecturer? Is there anyone out there who i can asked about this problem and give me the solution for this? 🙂 🙂

Hope, i got my answer in the end of this week. Dear God, hear my prayer.. 🙂